WHO I AM

can you tell me who i am..????

don't you know about me....????

do you think i am a bad or good person?

how come my friend just play with me?

i tried to be very friendly to them why they just so rude and mean to me

in front of me they very kind and nice person

but at the back they kick me off

i really don't know what's wrong with me.

should i care it???

or just iqnore them?

no one can be perfect even me.

why they judge person buy their beauty on the outside.

why they dont try to see them by their heart.

sometime i justt feel so tired with all this happen

just like a game but never the end.

whoever i am...still god in my heart.

yes , i believe .. god always in my heart to help me,

to give me a better life and happiness

ok well,..whatever they said about me i'll not care it

say and do whatever you want about me. i'll nut hurt you back

TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHO I AM

PLEASE FORGIVE ME......

I CLOSE MY EYES.....THINKING ABOUT MY DREAM...MY HOPE... AND MY BETTER LIFE.
NO BODY CAN BE PERFECT EVEN ME. BUT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I CAN'T BRING BACK MY TRUST THAT I LOOSE FROM MY FAMILY AND FRIEND.
I WANT TO SAY THEM THAT I CAN IMPROVE MY LIVE .
I'LL NEVER CRY,THINKING,STRESSFUL,DISAPPOINT OR....ETC ABOUT WHAT I HAVE DONE BEFORE IN MY LIFE.
I'LL LOOK FOR WORD...THINKING ABOUT FUTURE.. AND FORGET THE PAST.
I'M NOT A ANGEL WHO ALWAYS DOING THE RIGHT THING ( BUKAN MALAIKAT YANG SELALU BENAR) AND I'M NOT EVIL WHO ALWAYS DOING A BAD,WORST,DIRTY AND NASTY ( BUKAN SEORANG SETAN YANG SELALU BERBUAT SALAH DAN JAHAT).
I'M A HUMAN BEING...SOMETIME MAKE MISTAKE.
I REALLY SORRY TO DISAPPOINT YOU MAMA...I REALLY SORRY TO HURT YOUR FEELING EVERYBODY WHO LOVE AND CARE SO MUCH ABOUT ME.
BUT MY LIFE MUST GO ON....I'LL START AGAIN FROM THE BEGINNING AS I BORN AGAIN NOW.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME AND GIVE ME CHANGE TO SHOW YOU THAT WHO THE REAL OF ME.
THANK YOU MAMA.. THANKS MY FAMILY...AND THANKS MY FRIEND

MY WONDERFUL DEAMS......

Today I really feel so sad......, yea ch really...really sad. I can even take a breath.I ran to my room...crying and screaming as loud as i can.
Nobody knows how suffer i am... how poor my life... how difficult my situation.
Do you know why people didn't notice it....????

that just because as they know, i am very strong and independent women who always smile,make a silly joke and take an easy about everything, no matter there was big or small problem. But who knows when i am alone..sitting in my room and st rat cry and in very very deep on the bottom of my heart there was some questions..when my suffer of life will be the end.... when the real happiness will be mine. (sorry my English bad but i want to practice it more that why i write it in English...ceritanya pingin nguji nyali... SOK PD GITU LHO... kan hitung2 latihan gratis..maklumlah biasa makan singkong jadi lidah kaku fikiran ketul deh..... tapi setidaknya ngerti kan maksud ku..??????

but the way..... i believe in god, he never sleep and he knows what the best things for his people in earth. i just pray..pray... and as for the help that someday my dream will be come true.

everybody has a dream...even me too. I have a huge dream that someday i can spent my hole life just being a teacher for poor people who can't send their children to go to school for education,just because they don't have enough money for that.

but i really want to start ting it as soon as possible . my opinion is beginning on July 2010 and start ting about 5 or 10 kids, age between 3 and 6 years old. just like kindergarten.

I'll do all my best.....teach them all the good things.....let's them know more knowledge when they still young as much as i know.....to help them growing to be independent person who always have big responsibility,respectful,honest, polite and trust.

i wish god will bless me and make all this will be happen..Amin